Know ME!!

I had nothing to do this whole afternoon, so I was going through archives of my blogger-friends for the sole reason to find some post ,so that I can tag myself to it.. lol :P
So I got this post on Ashkd's blog..
Though there were 2-3 questions which I can not reply, but sill.. Lets see how I fare!! :D


LAST TIMES…
1. Last beverage: Coke
2. Last phone call: Umm.. lemme check.. It was from Sanjukta (a friend)
3. Last text message: from way2sms to update my profile :P
4. Last song you listened to: "UP wala thumka lagau ki Hero jaise nach ke dikhau " arey sach mein..I listened this one only.. ;) All thanks to Ashwini .. :P
5. Last time you cried: Last week

HAVE YOU EVER...

6. Dated someone twice: Nah.. Never.. But must be a world class experience.. What say!! :P
7. Been cheated on? : Yeah *very sad* :(
8. Kissed someone & regretted it? NOooooooooo.. I rarely regret doing anything.. :)
9. Lost someone special? Fortunately no
10. Been depressed? Nope.. Yeah Yeah .. 2-3 months back.. I was being stupid..But thats ok.. We all have our childish moments :) No regrets..
11. Been drunk and threw up? I sincerely wish to do it once just for the sake of experience.. :P But as of now I'm a non-alcoholic, vegetearian , seedhi -sadhi ladki ;)

LIST FOUR FAVORITE COLORS:

12. Blue
13. White
14. Green
15. Black

FIRSTS :

16. Made new friends: Not really.. Actually not really been to anywhere apart from school,college, work.. So can't say.. Abhi duniya nahi dekhi.. :)
17. Fallen out of love: Same as Ashwini replied.. As the million dollar question here is that , whether that was Love or not!!
18. Laughed until you cried: Oh many many times.. I laugh a lot.. Specially on my own PJs (Poor Jokes)
19. Met someone who changed you: I believe we imbibe something or the other from everyone we meet , talk , befriend..
20. Found out who your true friends were: Huh!! That situation will be scary..
21. Found out someone was talking about you: Yeah.. She was saying. "How can she wear this to college" Actually I wore different colored kurta, salwar and dupatta.. I'm one of those miniscule proportion of girls who don't spend more than 2 minutes in front of the mirror or on matching their clothes.. :(

HAVE YOU:

22. Kissed anyone on your friend's list: I have not met anyone of you, except one.. :)
23. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life: Already answered that..!!
24. How many kids do you want to have: I think one.. But I think husband will also have a say in this one, atleast :P
25. Do you have any pets: NOO.. Although, I would love to have a dog !
26. Do you want to change your name: Yeahhhhhhh.. Sure sure.. Like most of the people I also love unusual names.. ;)
27. What did you do on your last birthday: Watched a play.. Perfect B'day it was!! Sigh! :)
28.What time did you wake up today: 6:45 am
29. What were you doing at midnight last night: Head burried into books with almost zero absorption rate :P
30. Name something you CANNOT wait for : My Final Exams..
31. Last time you saw your father: 2 days back.. :)
32. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: Nothing at all.. I think whatever I have presently is the most perfect combination possible.. :)
What if one thing changes and then to accomodate with that, I have to change some other things.. And ultimately I'll lose myself.. na na scary thought.. !
33. Most visited web page: 24 0nlineclient / Gmail / Twitter

WHAT'S YOUR :

34. Name: Preposterous Girl (Yeah seriously.. I think I should change my real name to this one.. You know what, now wherever I see initials PG , I think its for me ) :P
35. Nicknames: PG
36. Zodiac sign: Saggitarius
37. Male or female or transgender : The fairer sex who is not so fair ;)
38. Elementary: Bluebird
39. Colleges: P.D.U.
40. Hair color: Black
41. Long or short: Shoulder length..You decide its long or short..
42. Height: 5’4”
43. Do you have a crush on someone? Yes on my love!!
44. Ever been in love? Yes..
45. Piercings? Ear..
46. Tattoos? No
47. Righty or lefty: Righty
48. First surgery: Never done nor been operated upon.. :)
49. First piercing: Ears.. told u before.. ek baar mein samajh nahi aata kya?? :P
50. First best friend: Sudha Gupta
51. First sport you loved: and still love - Antakshari if it can be termed as sport ;)
52. First pet : Never had pet :(
53. First vacation: To my nani ka ghar in Bihar
54. First concert: Spic Macay in I think Hindu College..
55. First crush: in Class 11
56. Eating: Oh I love to eat.. Big time foodie.. :)
57. Drinking: Water..
58. I'm about to: Switch off my PC.. Mom scolding.. :D
59. Listening to: My mom's bargain power.. she is nagging TV mechanic for Rs20.. :P
60. Waiting for: I think you asked that before too.. Ye questionnaire kisne banaya hai?? >:(

YOUR FUTURE

61. Want kids? Yeah sure.. BTW again a repeated question
62. Want to get married? Yeah.. Definitely
63. Careers in mind? Manager or Personal Seceratary to someone.. :P Someone, are you listening?? eh?? :P

WHICH IS BETTER WITH THE OPPOSITE SEX?

64. Lips or eyes: Eyes Anytime..
65. Hugs or kisses: Can't we have best of both worlds. ;)
66. Shorter or taller: Tall..
67. Older or Younger: If he has other qualities intact, then I can compensate on this one.. :-)
68. Romantic or spontaneous: Spontaneity will on its own make him romantic when a lady like me will be in his arms.. Dont u think so!! :P
69. Nice stomach or nice arms: Arms..
70. Sensitive or loud: Sensitive.. I'm loud.. so he should be my mellowed down version!
71. Hook-up or relationship: Relationship
72. Trouble maker or hesitant: Hesitant.. Whoever wants a trouble-maker..eh??

HAVE YOU EVER :
73. Kissed a stranger: Never!! Have you ever..Just curious!! :P
74. Lost glasses/contacts: I have a set of perfect eyes.. :) Although I would love to wear spectecales as it makes you look intellectual :P
76. Broken some one's heart: No.. Atleast not knowingly..
77. Had your own heart broken: Na..
78. Been arrested: Hehe.. Yeah while playing chor- police in childhood.. :P
79. Turned someone down: Yeah...its tough to do that..But sometimes you have no choice..
80. Cried when someone died: NO..
81. Liked a friend that is a girl?: Yeah but do u mean romantically.. No Never.. I'm Straight..

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

81. Yourself: Ofcourse ..
82. Miracles: NO.. Yet to happen to me.. Lets see after that :)
83. God: I'm not sure..
84. Love at first sight: Never happened with me.. Attraction is fine but love!! no way..
85. Heaven: No ... I think my home is heaven, and everything out of that is Hell :)
86. Santa Claus: Yeah as long as my mom keep gifting me on the eve of Christmas. :D
87. Kiss on the first date? No.. I belong to the old school of thought..
88. Angels: Yeah.. I'm an angel..haha
89. Devils: Oh yes..Whoever are mean to me are devils..fair enough?? ;)

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:

90. Is there one person you want to be with right now? Yes :-)
91. Had more than one boyfriend/girlfriend at one time? Never..
92. Wanted to kill someone ever? Yes :P By the way, still want to kill her.. And I'm serious
93. Among your blog mates, whom would you like to kiss? Hmm.. A toughy.. :P "Abhi to mile hain.. Kiss to door ki baat hai - KKHH " heheh I'm a big time movie freak :)
94. Committed a blunder and regretted later? Nahi..Told u I never regret.. :|
95. Wanted to steal you friend's boyfriend / girlfriend? :hehe.. No..

ASSOCIATE WITH SOMETHING YOU WEAR :

96. White: My Favourite Kurta
97. Black: Salwar
98. Red: One shirt
99. Pink: Being a girl I don't have anything Pink.. Shame on me.. :( But hey wait..Why should I be shameful. Ab pink shirt nahi hai to nahi hai..heheh :D :D
100. Posting this as 100 Truths? Yeah Yeah sure.. :D

Update (1st July'09)
Yesterday I was so exhausted replying these 100 questions , that I forgot to tag ypu guys.. If you want to help us know you better, then considr yourself tagged..

Looking forward to know you!! Cheers!

STEP BY STEP GUIDE TO UNAPOLOGETIC WALKING

(Image source :Internet)

I took up a challenge around 3 months back..And believe you me , It was a real toughy as it had to be performed in the notorious and infamous Rape Capital of India..
I didnt dared to tell this to my mum about this challenge lest she would have surely discouraged.. umm no not discouraged she would have locked me up for even just having a thought to be so adventurous..:)
Okay now enough of introduction..Lets get down to business.So I took up this challange of STEP BY STEP GUIDE TO UNAPOLOGETIC WALKING initiated by blanknoise.
I'm writting first the challenge and then its result..

1. Walk very very slowly.
To start with this step, I was a little sceptical. What if someone considers me a "lose character"?? But then after a day of constant muddling with this question I came to the conclusion- WHO CARES !! This is my city.I have full right to take a stroll, to admire its beauty by walking very very slowly..
Result : I constantly got second looks, sometimes even 3rd or 4th look.. Once the guy in the car slowed his car and gave some "signals" that I can get a lift..

2. Walk without your phone.
This was not very difficult coz anyways my phone was in service centre, so it was like out of compulsion too.But there was always this fear in the initial days that what if someone grabs me , put into the moving car then I dont have any mode of communication..
But thankfully nothing of that sort happened.I think this step was added so that we girls can walk confidently without being in touch with some friend or spouse constantly..
I declare that this step was quite easy for me to perform.. :)

3. Walk without your bag.
Phew..I didnt knew that I was unconsciously using bags to hide myself from those oggling eyes.. :o
When I walked without my big bag, I almost felt naked.. Yes naked is the word.. I used to hide myself..Maybe I was not comfortable with my body..But after 10 days without the bag, I felt confident..
I cant say this for all the girls out there, but I definitely felt better. May be I was underconfident earlier :(

4. Walk without your arms crossed or folded.
Now this was a habit and very difficult to get rid off.Standing on the bus stop when all the rickshawwalas, local uncle-jis , pani-wala , bus-conductors staring at ur breasts, what u'll do.. Crossing arms is like reflex action deep embedded in ur brains..
I'm telling u very difficult to undo this action..But finally I won over that too..but with cheating..I started wearing dupatta :P but for just two day till I got down to point 17..
After some days I succeeded without any cheats.. When someone stared ,I stared them back with the look- "Don't mess with me"

5. Walk without your sunglasses
Can't say anything about this coz I dont have sunglasses :( .This point in a way helped my wishlist to grow.Have to save money now :P
BTW I dont know y this point coz I always thought that sunglasses make u more "vulnerable" to those "vultures"

6. Walk without looking on the ground.
After I took up this challenge then I noticed many of the women use this "strategy " of looking on the ground..It was fun looking the world straight in their eyes.Many of those stares changed their directions , just by looking in the eyes :)

7. Walk looking at passersby.
This one was real fun when I had to look at the hotties ;)
On a serious note, even my friends thought what am I doing..Can,t say about its results coz I'm still not comfortable doing this + I can,t understand its rationale..

8. Walk with your shoulders back
Panic button pressed here..!! Shoulders back means.. No slumped posture means torso fully in-a-way exposed with clothes on!!But I dared and came over this too.Now I can confidently walk down any road without any adjustments in my posture :)

9. Walk with your chin a little raised.
This was almost same as No.6 .. So same results.No extra work here.

10. Walk with a smile.
:-D Tough when I'm not blessed with a smiling face :P and also a smile without any reason in our society means "I'm asking for it".. This one took me the longest to adjust..A guy even smiled back once :-D

11. Walk swinging your arms.
Swinging my arms??? How can I?? I'm always taught to walk straight without looking here and there..
Oh let me tell u one thing..While this experiment, I was thinking as to why girls don't look here and there while walking, atleast in Delhi.. I tried looking here n there..And voila!! I got the result.. coz every nook and corner, on the sides of the roads, even on the sides of the bus stops , u can see men relieving themselves relieving themselves..Girls surely don't want to have a dekko of those flashing u-know-what of men suffering from uncontollable-bladder.

12. Walk humming a song.
I love it..I love humming songs but in public places.It was a definite no-no.. I remeber once a girl was humming song in the bus and an elder cousin said "look that girl is singing".. Maybe the seed germinated there that girls should not hum in full public view or else u r again "asking for it"..
But I tried it first with i-pod on and humming along with it..Some eyes were raised.Women gave me a strange look..
Then I graduated to the next step. Humming without any support.. Few days later, I can confidently hum louder without any thoughts about "log kya kahenge"

13. Walk whistling.
Poor me :( I cant whistle.. so no results.. But this one will surely brand us Adam-teasers ;) what say girl-whistlers :P

14. Walk day dreaming.
Oh I do it all the time.And I started doing it with no.1 point, where I had to walk very slowly..

15. Walk in the middle of a pavement.
This one was tough more because here in Delhi the two-wheeler drivers prefer to drive their bikes on the footpath leaving no space for pedestrians..And the walled sides have stench of urine, so even tougher to walk there.. :)
So no pavement walking- middle or sides :(

16. Walk alone.
Difficult during sunny afternoons.I used the preventive measures which always pops-up in newspapers like walking against the traffic and using more crowded roads..I couldnot incorporate slow walking and walking alone away from my home like near college.. I felt defeated here :(

17. Walk without your duppata.
Told u earlier ..I took some time to adjust.But with other points like walking looking straight helped a lot :)

18. Walk wearing the one garment you always wanted to but did not because you someone made you feel you ar 'asking for it'
This one garment was a low-neckline top.I wore it only if some friend is picking and dropping by car..not even bike..
So I decide to wear it.. And I wore it and ended up getting lots of unwanted comments while walking down the road.But like other times, I didnt felt guilty.. :D

19. Walk alone.
I dont know y this point was repeated.May be this was done on purpose..

20. Walk at 7 am. 5 am. midnight. 3 pm. 1 pm. 9 pm.
I tried jogging at 5 and 7 a.m. it was tough and I failed..I could not jog as people were staring as in my locality girls dont jog .None at all...I'm at loss of reason for this :(
Though I admit I didnt tried that hard as I did in other points, coz I'm too lazy to go out for jogging :P
Minight I didnot tried.My mum will kill me.I'll give it a try if I can sneak out or if I'm alone .. :P

After this 3 months experiment I came out more confident and comfortable.. I was able to undo many of the things which were never reall taught but somehow got embedded in me and in other girls..But I cant generalise.Please let me know if u girls or boys who know their spouse,friends,relatives behave like I behaved earlier.

I'm really thankful to Blanknoise for taking up this initiative..Kudos to u.. :)

I request you all out there to please make this sexually repressive society come out of this dogma of sexuality.

YOUTH- a boon or a bane??

For last few days I'm a little uneasy about the double standards our society is portraying..there are 'n' number of problems we can count which needs to be addressed..But today i'm talking about the implications of being an IAS officer..
We all know that in India bearing an IAS office is of not most then deginitely much coveted job.Some students even prepare for about 3-4 years to reach to their dream position.Nothing wrong in it..
But what caught my attention to this office is something which happened to my friend ,I'm calling her Akshima (fictional name) which I want to share here..
So, it goes like this.. Akshima was in a relationship with this guy named Akshay (again name fictionalised) for about three years..Both of them are my school friends so I know them very well..He was this that geeky child, winning every possible award in school for academic excellence and other extra-curricular activities except sports.He was later even the head boy of the school.He used to head those various club meetings held in school which sow the seeds of respect towards other religion , not to discriminate on the basis of caste , creed and sex.. Once in our discussions he said that he belongs to a superior caste and how he should always strive hard to beat Nitin(fictional name) to keep the lower caste down..I was shocked..As for me he was idol of sorts. When I questioned him , he replied that all that is for being the head boy..
it disturbed me but I forgot it later... Then I lost touch with him personally.

But I was in touch with Akshima..Akshima and Akshay started dating after school.She is now working in a very reputed firm on a good post and getting a handsome pay-packet.And Akshay got himself an engineering degree from IIT-D and then prepared for UPSC..After two unsuccessful attempts he finally got himself the dream job..
So whats the catch, you must be wondering..
He broke-up with Akshima last week citing the following reasons..

1.You belong to SCHEDULED CASTE.
2.Your economic status is not as good as mine will be after i'll join the IAS OFFICE
3.You are not presentable to my colleagues..

FTW FTW

Bollocks!!

Are these kind of officers our country is appointing to serve the country who are still in the shackles of religion , caste , beauty ???

I'm not generalising but I'm just questioning the selection process..

Anyone can fool such imminent interview panel of UPSC as a dilligent candidate just by memorising same lines "That I want to serve my motherland and consider all the countrymen as Brothers and Sisters"

They are appointed as our sevants but they consider themselves as masters..The why keep this misnomer -CIVIL SERVANT..?? Why not CIVIL MASTER????

I'm happy that Akshima is no longer with her..He definitely didnt deserved such an angel coz she was the one who used to scan all the newspapers to feed him the news so that he can utilize the time and study other things..She was very busy but still while travelling to and from the office she used to do this..
She never demanded time for her to let him excel in the exams..
And this is what she got..I'm vry happy for her..

But it just left an indelible mark about the selection process of the beaurocrats..And more so because he represents the youth brigade about which we always boast about..

Where are we heading??

Padhai ke Side-Effects!

Like all good things like Fun , Food and Friendship , if classes are attended way more than required by student's unsaid standards , then it shows signs. And I'm saying all this coz I'm a victim of this deadly disease..no actually its a syndrome..
Its like a vicious circle..Once you are trapped into any part of the loop , there is no escape..
I used to be a regular college girl with bunking more classes than attending and then giving exams on the basis of tips given here.And i knw you all would trust me on this that i fared almost equal to the toppers..
Ok Ok I exaggerated , but I managed to pass farely on my own with little help from oogling eyes.. And yes i have to mention that this talent of popping your eyeballs out without ever letting them fall is taught free here in India ..Remeber those men standing on the corners of the roads .. You just have to walk down the road ... no no not too far away just walk down your local gali.. I'm sure you'll manage to observe atleast 1- 2 oogle-rs..Just observe them, and look you are all set to give exams with newly acquired talent of ur eyes.. but dont forget to thanks those omnipresent men..Had it not been for them , we would not have passed.. Now you know why there are not enough programmes run by govt. to sensitize these men as they are serving the student community..

So I was this bubbly kid following the set norms, but one day a seed of radicalism burst in me and at our regular hangout zone I announced my friends that I'm going to attend all the lectures of Probability.Everybody just said its just old world Mathematics hangover and she'll be fine..But I was determined and for the first time I attended almost all the lectures.. Once the condition was that there was not a single student except me in the class..In general also , the environment of that calss was more or less like private tution..It was because no one bothers much to attend class whose attendance are not given weightage for internal assessment..

Anyhow the classes have ended and we have an exam tomorrow of probability..And I have not yet manged to complete a single page of the book coz since 2 days I'm only on phone.Everybody is asking the following more or less the similar pattern on phone..here are the excerpts

Friend : Hi
Me: Hi.. Kitna padha
Friend : Abhi kaha yaar.Tu bata.. tujhe to sab aata hoga..tu to uski chamchi thi..
Me: Arre nahi yaar. I used to be present there physically never mentally..
Friend : chal rehne de. sab pata hai..ab bata na jaldi kya kya bataya tha..drama kyun kar rahi hai
Me: kuch nahi..sachhi..
Friend : Achha treat pakka.. jaha tu bolegi..
Me: (good idea)par agar wo ques na aaye to tu mujhe kahega/kahegi ki galat bataya..
Friend: I wont utter a word..thats a promise..
ME : and treat??
Friend: @#$%^ le liyo yaar.. !@#$$%
then I told them some questions from last few years just for those promised parties..

This is how my two prep days were lost on phone..And I got the enlightment from this instance that in matters of classes always go with the flow..
I'm heavy with guilt, let me share with u what happened with me in the classes..How I felt cheated..
1. When probability class were about to start we were told we would be taught by a very handsome teacher in our college, on whom i had a secret crush.. which is now over after this enlightenment..
But as soon as I entered the class an old female bengali teacher was writting something on the board..With my heart in my mouth I wanted to run away from there but because of those long sppeches about the use of probability given over rounds of teas and samosas i couldn't muster courage...So i quietly sat down in a lonely corner..
And since then I had to attend all the classes with zilch interest :( ;(

2. After some days , almost all subject's course was covered .so we were required to go to the college just for probability lectures , which other students decided to bunk and as you all know why , i had to travel for about 1.5 hrs to attend that @#$%$^ lecture..
And twice it happened to me that that teacher didnt turned up..And the class was scheduled at 2p.m... So surviving that deadly heat I reached college and then came back..
I obviously never told anyone about this lest they would have laughed at me..

3. Rem i told you, once I even attended class alone.That day while I was waiting for the teacher i was thinking that she would praise me and I'll now be in her good books ( which would fetch me marks in internal assessment )..
But you know what, she scolded me.. firstly I got the bashing on behalf of my classmates as to why they all didn't turned up and Secondly that I should have informed her so that she didnt have to travel all the way just to teach a single student..
So all hopes crashed then and there..

4. I didnt understood a word in class coz already i used to be in my dream world(as I used to be without my friends who keep me awake) and to add to that the teacher had heavy bengali accent ..

So after attending I'm not even half prepared as to when I didn't attended a SINGLE CLASS..All my prep time lost on phone..
So I thought to enlighten you all so that no one falls prey to these monsters-cum-classes..

P.S. : I'm adding my signature to my posts now which I used to love whenever I visited Kaddu's or Chiranjib's blog.. I hope Kaddu won't file any copyright thingie on me , as since I'm her reader I'm always on the lookout to lift things up from her blog ! :P